Monday, November 02, 2009
much as i do complain and feel disappointed about all the missed weekends, i guess they do come at pretty opportune timings. last time, i fell sick when you couldn't come back, and this time, i was caught up the whole weekend with Climb On!...
but then again, it would have been great if you were here to share the joy with me. i hate being apart for so long, but i guess there's nothing much I can do... see you soon.
imagined at 3:28 PM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
it's been 3 months, and both you and i agree that it seems so much longer than that.
has it been hard? being away 5 days a week, and having a clock ticking at the back of my head everytime i'm spending time with you, reminding me that soon we have to part again? well yea, it's been terribly hard. i would be lying if i said otherwise.
but yes, i can see the future. the future with both of us, if only i can find it in myself not to screw this up again. not to drive the people i love the most away. cos that was what i had always seemed to excel at in the past.
and i already can't imagine a life without you. so God, please, help me not to screw this up.
imagined at 12:07 AM
Monday, September 14, 2009
long-distance has been more like middle-distance thus far. the weekends were still something i can look forward to for the past month.
things may be harder to bear with though, from this week onwards, and weekends may not be such a commodity from now on. it's hard to bear with that thought, but i guess i just have to live with it.
hopefully i'll see you in 11 days.
imagined at 2:47 PM
Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Thought I saw you in the Battleship
But it was only a look a like
She was nothing but a vision trick
Under the warning light
She was close, close enough to be your ghost
But my chances turned to toast
When I asked her if I could call her your name
I thought I saw you in the Rusty Hook
Huddled up in wicker chair
I wandered up for a closer look
And kissed whoever was sitting there
She was close, and she held me very tightly
Till I asked awfully politely, please
Can I call you her name
And I elongated my lift home,
Yeah I let him go the long way round
I smelt your scent on the seatbelt
And kept my shortcuts to myself
I thought I saw you in the Parrots' Beak
Messing with the smoke alarm
It was too loud for me to hear her speak
And she had a broken arm
It was close, so close that the walls were wet
And she wrote it out in letraset
No you can't call me her name
Tell me where's your hiding place
I'm worried I'll forget your face
And I've asked everyone
And I'm beginning to think I imagined you all along
I saw your sister in the Cornerstone
On the phone to the middle man
When I saw that she was on her own
I thought she might understand
She was close, well you couldn't get much closer
She said I'm really not supposed to but yes,
You can call me anything you want
- Cornerstone (Arctic Monkeys)
you can just imagine the story in your mind. set in the Victorian ages, when pubs have names like Rusty Hook, Battleship. it's probably frequented by sailors; lonely sailors in search of some company.
there was this one young sailor, who on a chance meeting, met and fell in love with a mystery lady, maybe even a hooker, since he doesn't even know where she's from. and everywhere he goes, to every bar that he patronises, he searches for that someone who could be her.
perhaps it's me, but i can just see a whole story out of this. it's beautiful. heart-breaking. it makes my heart ache.
imagined at 1:35 PM
Monday, August 31, 2009
there's been an influx of new music to my collection. first with the long-awaited new Arctic Monkeys album, Humbug (which IMHO, is absolutely classic), then with Artwork by The Used. Even the new Cobra Starship album (Hot Mess) is not all that bad either.
but seriously Humbug is great. it seemed an impossible task to surpass their previous album, but Humbug went in a different direction and manage to wow me in all different sorts of ways. from dark and groovy tunes like Crying Lightning and My Propeller, to beautiful old-school style Cornerstone, I loved almost every track on the album.
on a side note, it's been awhile since I watched a match. would have been nice to catch the 2-1 victory against Arsenal, and see Arsene Wenger blow his top, but oh well. as you grow older, you realize sometimes, there are more important things to occupy your time with.
can't believe it's only been 5 weeks, seems like quite awhile huh. i've got a good feeling about this. i know you do too.
imagined at 1:19 PM
Friday, August 07, 2009
"It seems you tend to go for tough love huh," Zhijian commented during one of our conversations a few weeks ago.
while i don't particularly make a conscious decision to do so, it appears that the path i choose for myself is never easy. not that i want to, but seems like i always have to do things the hard way.
i can only take comfort in that things you work hard for is that much more precious to you.
i'm gonna make it work this time. don't let me down again, life.
imagined at 9:35 PM
Friday, July 24, 2009
After 4 years of faithful service, my laptop has finally come to it's natural death. One day, it went to sleep, and never woke up.
It also happened to choose the worst possible timing to do so, dying the night before my assignment was due, and before I had printed it out for submission.
I was quick to move on. I had to. So don't blame me for being heartless. A compaq sits in its place now, with the heart of everything my Dell and I had shared now in a portable hard drive (which was actually Dell's heart, the technician kindly removed it and put a casing to it, transforming it into a hard drive for me).
that aside, so much has happened since my last post. for now I will just enjoy the time we have together. what will happen in the future, no one knows. we'll just have to see how it goes i guess.
imagined at 5:43 PM
